[	mood	|	depressed.	]
[	music	|	Emery	]

i have a feeling i'm gonna be depressed again.... i hate summer break... break means i cant go to school, and no school means no life for me... my dad never lets me do nething and the past week he has been a complete jackass to me... im not even going to call him dad ill refer to him as mark... well.. the past couple days mark has been flipping out on me over NOTHING what-so-ever and its really making me feel like shit... we usually have our pety arguements but lately its been pretty bad and i finally broke down today and cryed my eyes out... i wish i had a normal family and a normal dad that actually cared... it would be so wonderful... but instead i have a mark..ive been really depressed since school ended mainly becuz im not lookin forward to this summer at all... i loved ms. powers class... in that classroom i was actually happy i talked about a number of my problems in most of my papers and i vented alot... but without that class i have nothing to vent too and it sucks... i just wish 2 years would hurry and pass so i can leave this shithole i call home.. its not a home at all... at home ur suppose to be happy and content but not here so this is not my home... after 2 years passes i'll never talk to mark again and i cant wait... i really hate him, hate is such a strong word but its so very very true... its mutual hate if u kno about mark... i wish that he would just quit bitching at me all of the time... u kno quit saying "if u get less then a 95 on this report card u'll be grounded so long u wont kno how old u are" wtf is up with that? if mark was a normal father he'd say "wow great job u got a 94!" and give me a hug, but does he no... i cant remember the last time i got a hug from him... i dont think i ever have... boy is that sad or what.... anyways ill quit bitching now.... i really need a hug...

until next i write....

~JeSSiE~

[	mood	|	bouncy	]
[	music	|	Taking Back Sunday- "Cute without the E"	]

dude yesturday was the potato festival... and it was so awesome... woke up at like 4 in the morning to get there at 7 and set up... setting up sucked a lil took forever... too much small stuff to mess with... after that i was the first person to ride the nascar symulator becuz they needed sumone to test it out and that was oh so cool.... then started selling stuff for my mom and aunt... i should get paid for that stuff tomorrow or w/e... then the best thing ever... I GOT TO DRESS AS A POTATO!, yes thats right i was the potato at the potato festival and it was great... i mean who wouldnt wanna be a potato mascot? it was hot as a bitch too but i dont care... i was in it for 4 hours straight and i chased lil kids and made them happy... these teen dude started to beat me up tho and i was so fuckin pissed... when i got outta the suit and punched one of them so fucking hard... and he was all like wtf was that for? and i was like dude i was the potato! and i walked off... i was so pissed i woulda killed them... then i hung out with jason.. he's actually pretty cool despite wut others say.. i dunno maybe i just like ppl... well then today would be sunday and its been ok... did yard work this morning but thats ok... went and got my HAIRS CUT! yay its so short i love it... YES! ima spike it one day this week lol that would be oh so awesome... then i walked into Jay and his friend from RI (lol cant remember his name) in walmart... and we talked for a while... his friend seems cool... oh well... thats been my awesomely cool weekend so far... sooooo

until next i write...

~JeSSie~